Not gonna happen

They're not pulling the drain tube today; too much drainage as of yesterday.  And a cath is being scheduled for Monday.

I am in the valley.  I feel crushed, hurt, angry, and betrayed.  I know things could turn around anytime, but I just don't even feel like I have anymore hope.  I have been told over and over by the "professionals" that drainage always stops, and I believe them.  But right now that just doesn't comfort me.  I am going into the blank zone where nothing even seems to matter anymore.  I don't want to hear any more good news because I won't believe it, and I don't want to hear any bad news because I've heard too much and there's nothing I or anyone else can do about it anyway.

So we're back to just repeating the past weeks over and over again.